God's Checklist

I have had a roller coaster of a week. I spent Monday and Tuesday on a strict schedule of chores...that I had made up for myself. I got up Wednesday morning dreading the day because I knew that I could get my checklist done, but I wouldn't be happy even when every item on the to-do list was checked off. You see I have this conviction that my worth is tied up in my productivity - as though I were an appliance. I am 43. I hope not to die before I overcome this conviction. Wednesday, I spoke to the Creator and said, "Today, you make my checklist. I'll follow." So I began the day by tutoring this Chinese girl who has lived in the US for about 6 months and who I am helping to learn conversational English. This fact is one of many that makes both my family and friends roll their eyes and tell me that my life is very interesting - whatever that means. The girl is 21. She has an 8 year old cousin who sometimes tags along. One day I will devote an entire blog to this situation. The two girls hinted around about staying with me after we finished the lessons and finally told me that the older girl's mother was out of town at a wedding and that they would be lonely at home the rest of the day.
I had called a friend earlier to eat lunch so we just turned lunch into a luncheon of sorts. It was pretty funny to introduce two people to the world of Pizza Hut and all of the strange tastes there. lol They were not impressed - I thought everybody loved pizza. They then ran several mundane errands with me - Well, if I had been alone they would have been mundane. I felt like the FBI had dragged me in for questioning - it's funny how we take for granted the wonder of going to the post office and paying the water bill.
We then went to my aunt's house for a visit. She fed us all cookies and water and we enjoyed an hour on her sun porch.
Earlier at the library, the younger of the girls had checked out a craft book and had peppered me with requests to make this crafty teacher out of an eraser and pencils. So we went to my classroom and swiped an eraser then we went to my house and I gathered up scraps of this and that from my treasure trove of crafts. I must say that the result was an eraser teacher that looked even better than the example in the book. I discovered then that the girl was making it for her teacher. Of course, we had to drive across town to take it to the girls school. I told her that her teacher would not be there - but you know how it is when you are a kid - you can't conceive of your teacher not being at school, summer or not. So we went and thank goodness, the principal, who is fantastic, took the gift and promised to get it to the girls' teacher. When I finally convinced the girls that I really did have to take them home, they had me take them to their family restaurant instead where her father filled two plates with yummy Chinese food and sent me home with my supper made.
I ended the day relaxing on the porch with my precious husband - in absolute awe of the difference in my checklist of things to do and my God's checklist.
That set the tone for the rest of the week. I just let things happen. Some of them were hard work, some of them were fun, some were expected and some were total surprises. But I was not in the driver's seat. I was riding. For those of you who are control freaks - you know that that is not easy - but let me say that it is better, far better. I think I'll try it again this week.